Reply To: Taking Direction ?

#185

You know when I first came I couldn’t wait to have 90 days so that I could chair a meeting!! But taking direction was very hard and still is being that I have 8 months and am still a new comer. I really need to get something off of my chest though. My old sponsor asked me to speak at the sunday 7:00 meeting for her and her reasoning was that she would never get up in time. Now, the only thing I am going to say about her is that her life is not as busy as mine and there is no reason why she shouldn’t be able to get up. I said yes, however, I have not been sleeping at night and Sunday is my only day off so I told her I didn’t want to do it. Now I feel guilty for not sticking to my commitment. Also, I was supposed to do coffee tonight for another meeting and I am laying out by the pool and I got someone else to do it for me. Now, I feel guilty about that. I just don’t feel like doing anything now that its summer and it scares me because in the beginning when I thought about drinking I would always say I can’t drink I have to chair a meeting. I know I’m not that important someone else would do it but this helps me stay sober. So I guess you could say I need some direction and its never easy be the alcoholic nut job i am to take direction. Hence my name roller coaster cause that is what I am on. [/i]